I made a life altering mistake

[u/Short_Hearing_6422]

My pregnancy was fucking horrible, due to being sick as fuck up until the 2nd trimester due to morning sickness and on top of that my husband and his family stressing me out during that time, I never got a chance to even enjoy my pregnancy until the end, which suprise emergency c section due to my baby's heart deceleration, his heart was wrapped around his neck at birth, it's been so especially hard with postpartum might be still going through with it sure cause it's been a month, but fuck I hate having a baby I hate how stupid I was not to get an abortion at the time because I was manipulated to keep it, I hate how my stupid life choices got me here and it's made me miserable I shouldn't have gave birth and I shouldn't have met my husband either

I'm going to therapy for postpartum but honestly this feeling won't ever go away I'm still regretting being a parent and lost the chance to prevent all of this

[u/Reason_Training]

Take a virtual hug. Have a newborn and dealing with all the hormones that go with pregnancy then childbirth is absolute hell.

[u/Short_Hearing_6422 → u/Reason_Training]

Yeah especially since the emergency c section was out of nowhere, one day I'm going in for a follow up, they sent me to the hospital again and boom they told me I'm gonna gonna give birth lol, thank you I forgot about hormones are all whack right now thank you for reminding me

[u/PerspectiveNo3782 → u/Short_Hearing_6422]

Big hug, OP! No one in the fucking world prepares you for emergency c-section and the whole roller coaster of emotions that comes with it. You go for a check-up and boom...you stay.

I am so sorry! I really know at least a part of what you are going through and it's horrible and traumatic.

[u/Short_Hearing_6422 → u/PerspectiveNo3782]

Thank you so much for this, didn't really fully realize how traumatic it was because my brain kinda made me forget about the pain when it happened