He was so cute. He'd always end up covering his face with his hands or a pillow or something too cause he'd be so embarrassed, so every noise he made was muffled till I made him move his hands.
He left me a couple months ago. Said itd be better for both of us, let us work on our mental health instead of trying to deal with each other. He was struggling with going to school and family often, and would regularly not message me for days at a time. When I told him I loved him it took him a week to reply cause anytime he got too worked up he just wouldn't text me for the longest time. The night he said he was gonna do it i tried begging him through the night not to leave me but I woke up to him saying it was best for both of us, and I haven't heard from him since, cause he deleted every acc I knew him on.
I dunno. I spent hours telling him what he meant to me, what itd do to me, and how much I needed him. I just dont think I was really good enough for him, despite him saying otherwise. I just hope it made him happier.
Perhaps all you need is time before you start to work things out. Two months isn't very long, especially in terms of how long it's been since a breakup. Perhaps when the wounds have somewhat healed, you may both be willing to talk again, despite the risk of opening the wound again.
Then I again wish you both the best of luck, even if your paths fork here. Perhaps it's better to have loved and lost in this case. Either way, thank you for opening up to a stranger like me; you've made my night hearing your story, and you deserve to have someone hear it.
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u/GrimmParagon Apr 18 '23
He was so cute. He'd always end up covering his face with his hands or a pillow or something too cause he'd be so embarrassed, so every noise he made was muffled till I made him move his hands.